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Post by aiden on Aug 2, 2010 18:09:09 GMT -5
Ayden was still going crazy since returning. Even Faolan kept his distance from her and it drove her absolutely mad. Being Xavier’s granddaughter did have its benefits. Though she generally did not poke around often, she still enjoyed exploring. Today, she found it was the only way she could collect her thoughts, figure out if they were truly hers or if they actually belonged to someone else.
Finally, she made her way to the doors outside of Cerebro. She had no desire to back in there, even if it might provide solitude for a short time. Instead, she slide down the door, hugged her legs and buried her face in her knees, sorting out her voice from the plethora of others she heard.
Dispite what anyone said to her, she still viewed herself as a monster since her return. More than anything, she wished that she could turn time back and stop herself from ever losing her control.
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Post by tokra on Aug 4, 2010 17:31:44 GMT -5
He couldn't find Ayden anywhere, and no matter where he looked she was no where to be found. He even checked her room, and when she wasn't there he checked his, thinking she was hiding there for him. He looked all over the school and finally went to the professor who told him to check below the school.
"Ayden? Ayden where are you?"
Faolan was being distant from Ayden lately, spending most of his time in Dave's room now. But today he had managed to get the young wolf out to help look for Ayden, and it wasn't long before the two were turning down the hall towards Cerybro.
"There you are. What are you doing down here?"
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Post by aiden on Aug 4, 2010 17:38:29 GMT -5
When David entered the basement with Faolan, her silence was short lived. The voices came rushing back and it took all of Ayden's power to not focus on them, Tokra's mind slowly wearing at the weak veil her mind managed to construct in such a short time.
Faolan hesitantly sniffted at her and she raised a hand to stroke his ear.
"I was trying to get my head back to normal. It isn't working."
She bit her lip and buried her face back in her legs.
"I don't want to hear what you're thinking, and I'm trying very hard to not know, but I can't. I'm back to where I started out."
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Post by tokra on Aug 5, 2010 18:46:59 GMT -5
"When you get yours back to normal, let me know so I can work on mine next."
He smiled, trying to make a joke at the situation. He walked over and sat next to her, his hand reaching out to help pay attention to the young cub. He looked to her and put his arm around her, holding her close to him as she buried her face between her legs. He hugged her and smiled.
"I'll help you out any way I can, Ayden, I promise."
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Post by aiden on Aug 5, 2010 18:57:22 GMT -5
She glanced up at him, looking him in they eye for the first time since she had returned to the mansion. Ayden knew he was trying to make a joke, but somehow his attempt had failed. She pulled her lips into her mouth before burrying hiding her face again and beginning to sob hysterically.
When he pulled her towards him, she shoved him away and scrambled to her feet.
"Don't you get it? Everyone's scared of me. They cover it with concern, but deep down they all see me as nothing more than a murderer. I don't want to see that from you, but now I can see everything and it just gets worse when people touch me. Please don't."
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Post by tokra on Aug 5, 2010 22:00:56 GMT -5
"Ok, that's it."
He stood up, tired of Ayden thinking he was going to be like everybody else. For the first time in his life he didn't want to be like everybody else. He walked over and took her by the arms and brought her close to him, making sure her eyes were looking directly into his. He wanted to make sure that she saw everything that was going on in his mind that involved her.
"You want to know how I feel about you, then look in my eyes and see."
He made sure she saw everything. His fury of her missing, his frantic search for her that lead to his encounter with Cain, finding out where she was and heading to the island. His furious attack on the Brotherhood, and his return back to the woods and finding her. He cared about her so much that he didn't want to lose her. The fact she was thinking so little of him now made him more upset then angry.
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Post by aiden on Aug 6, 2010 14:42:49 GMT -5
She winced at his touch, not because she was afraid of him. Her body was still tender and his grasp was a bit too rough for her mending flesh. However, Ayden was careful to mask the pain after his memories began to pour into her mind, yet, he still didn't understand. She saw everything and it was beginning to wear on her mind, which was still fragile.
"Please stop it, you're hurting me." she whimpered, trying to not sound as pathetic as she felt.
Faolan sniffed her leg and rubbed his head against it, grinding her bandage against her scabs, nearly ripping it off. She yelped and collapsed, the wolf jumping away from her in suprise. She sighed and buried her face in her hands.
"It's not you." she whispered.
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Post by tokra on Aug 6, 2010 16:25:45 GMT -5
"I'm sorry, I just don't know why you're being distant from me when all I'm trying to do is help."
He walked over and sat against the wall as she collapsed against the wall as well. He sighed, looking down the hall, wondering what he would do next. Everything he tried to do ended in her going away. He sighed, looking to her when she said it wasn't him. What could it be then? Everybody's been talking about her when she wasn't around, and he had even got into a fight with a few of them.
"What is it then?" he looked to her, "I want to help you, but I can't when you won't let me."
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Post by aiden on Aug 6, 2010 16:36:24 GMT -5
She lowered her head even further, his words making her feel guilty with her behavior.
“I’m not trying to be distant. I’m sorry. I’m just…I don’t know. I’m…broken. I’m losing my mind and my powers are out of control. I’m hearing things that people don’t even know exist in their own mind.
Ayden sighed and shifted, wincing slightly at the movement of her leg. She couldn’t help but to smile at him this time. This was, in fact, the first smile she had cracked since she had arrived back at the mansion.
“You can’t always help me, David. I just need to get my head back to where it was before. I just need some time.”
She scooted closer to him and rested her head on his shoulder.
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Post by tokra on Aug 6, 2010 16:46:02 GMT -5
He looked to her and sighed, feeling lousy now that he had spoke his mind. The way she sunk lower seemed to make him feel even lower then she was sinking. He looked ahead, keeping quiet as she spoke. When she scooted closer to him, he looked to her and put his arm around her, gently trailing his fingers along her arm. When she looked to him and smiled, he smiled back, kissing her forehead and then a gentle one on her lips.
"I'll give you all the time you need."
He hugged her close, keeping in mind how fragile she was. He reached down and adjusted the bandage on her leg, seeing that they needed to be changed soon. Luckily they were nearby the lower infirmary. He saw Faolan sitting by the door and staring at them, and he patted the floor next to him. The young cub came over, tongue wagging, and laid down with a yawn.
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Post by aiden on Aug 6, 2010 17:01:50 GMT -5
When he promised her time, her slight smile faltered again. He clearly was underestimating just how much time she would need to do this on her own. Luckily, it was not a new process for her so it should have taken less time than her first rebuilding took, but it would still take a lot longer than she was willing to admit.
“I love you.” she stated suddenly, trying to ignore the itchy and uncomfortable state of her leg.
She reached across David’s lap and rubbed Faolan’s head before making her arm retreat. The wolf whined and stared at her with his big dumb eyes. She only smirked back.
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Post by tokra on Aug 6, 2010 22:49:08 GMT -5
He smiled as hers faltered, touching her cheek lightly. He still loved her, and even if he wasn't sure she loved him back, he always will. He smiled and kissed her softly, letting her know how he felt. When she said she loved him, it made his smile grow even more. She had finally said the words he'd been longing to hear from her.
"I love you to."
He smiled, glad that they had finally shared how they had felt. When she reached over to pet Faolan and then left the poor pup wanting more attention, he just laughed a little and began scratching his companion behind the ear. He then hugged Ayden close to him, making sure not to hurt her when he did.
"We should get those bandages looked at."
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Post by aiden on Aug 7, 2010 14:39:39 GMT -5
Within his wide grin, she giggled lightly. True, she was happy that he was happy she had told him she loved him rather than panicking, but he still looked like a jack-o-lantern to her. It was probably a good thing that he looked so happy because he was finally helping her to become herself again, which was actually the first part of her rebuilding. She smiled and kissed his cheek lightly before he suggested they look at her bandages.
“I’d rather not. It looks really disgusting.”
’ as it should’ she thought to herself. ’ After all, the majority of your skin and some of your muscle was ripped off.’ With David and Faolan’s interaction, she smirked. He still didn’t know how to tell her pet no.
“Faolan, you’re fine. Shut up.” The wolf was shocked at first, but then willingly obeyed, his tongue lopped out over his lips. She smiled, for even Faolan missed the old her.
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Post by tokra on Aug 8, 2010 23:41:36 GMT -5
"But they may need changing. I'm pretty good at that."
He smiled and closed his eyes as she kissed his cheek, kissing her lips softly afterwards. He was still a sucker for the young pup as well as her, scratching Faolan behind the ears and petting him lazily while the cub laid next to him. After a while he took her in both of his arms, holding her close and gently to him.
"You know I'll have to keep tabs on you from now on." he said with a wink.
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Post by aiden on Aug 11, 2010 0:03:55 GMT -5
She stuck her tongue out at him when he continued to insist upon changing her bandages.
"I'm not moving so you have no choice but to leave my bloody bandages alone."
Ayden arched a brow at this and cocked her head to the side.
"Why would you need to keep tabs on me? I have no intentions of leaving the mansion again...not for a while at least."
Faolan sneezed which caused Ayden to jump, sending her forehead into David's chin.
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